Found my motivation

When my meds were off I gained weight and got up to 189. About six weeks into the dosage change I am back down to 183.4 without working out or eating differently.  Well, I did cut out some of the sweets I craved so intensely.
I have some friendly competition with a couple of people.  In the next two months we will see who loses the greatest percentage of weight.
I have my 20 year high school reunion coming up in two months and that will have to be my motivation.  I would be perfectly happy with losing 10 lbs.
Because today is a thousand degrees outside and I have put my gym membership on hold, I will do some work indoors at home.  I may get out for a brisk walk once the sun starts to set.
I'll do about 3-5 minutes with my weighted hula-hoop and some work with the balance ball.
It really doesn't help that I ate Cheez-Its for dinner.

I've been bad

Besides the fact that I haven't been to the gym since the second or third week in May, I've been eating crap.
When I'm stressed and depressed I reach for the Ding-Dongs and other such goodies... and binge.
At some point I will get my act together and start working off this fat.
I caught my profile in a window while I was eating lunch outside a restaurant.  It was hideous.  I carry so much of my fat in my belly.  This is both unattractive and unhealthy, I know.
I donated all my fat clothes so it's either live uncomfortably in incredibly tight clothing or lose weight to fit the clothes I have.
I've refuse to weigh myself this week.

Not much of anything right now

Okay, so it's May 26th and I've done squat... not even a squat.
I've been so completely fatigued and can't get into this new doctor until June 10th.
I have another doctor to call and hopefully that will be sooner.

I've somehow managed to gain and lose three pounds though.  However, I think it's just because I sleep all the time.

I'm determined to continue this quest but have to get my health back on track.  It also doesn't help that for the past few days it's been a million degrees and humid out.

Current weight 181.2

Tired, sluggish and fat

I haven't been eating well lately.  I've been eating whatever and too much of it.  I've given in to all my cravings and I think I've survived on pure junk for the past two days.  I can't remember the last fruit or vegetable I had.  I physically and mentally feel gross.
I have this warped mentality, I eat when it's a typical meal time even if I'm not hungry because I think if I don't eat, my body will go into starvation mode and my metabolism will slow.  What the???  If I simply wait another hour I might actually be hungry!  Gasp!
I've got to rediscover my willpower.

Playlist

Any suggestions for what I can put on my playlist?
I don't listen to country or rap.
List whatever you got!